I love writing , I don't care if it's a book or not , i just have to get stuff out of me . I don't know if i'm author material , i have spontaneous thoughts written as far back as 1987 , with about a decade gap and then another bunch of writings with about another decade gap . The gaps were the years of loosing who i was and loss of inspiration with life in general but writing something lingered with me all day like air , but i couldn't bring myself to believe that what i love so much mattered any more than i did . So i just want to bet back at it again . I feel alive i have a lot on my mind . And you sound a lot like me and i needed to know that i'm not the only one who has these desires , you pretty much taught me how to channel them . I love your tips . thank you so much.